damn it. recently not in very good mood.damn stress.tml assignment deadline haiz.
recently i gt my confirm letter. n now im doin sales job. handling all the quotation
sales order po customer etc. don even have time to actually breathe .tons of things
to do. exam coming. stress sia. haiz. i need some fresh air. ( as in u kon wat. )
he? omg i really don kon wat i sld do to bring back to mi. i feel so insignificant to
him. he so near yet seems so far. y in the first place must he come back n disrupt my
life. all this years im doing fine. wen he came back i realise im no longer myself.
no longer the one who is proud abt herself. i seems so small out of a sudden.wat sld i
do ? to bring him? sld i let go of my pride? sld i beg him to come back to mi? y sld
he reappear into my life again.giving mi hope n banish mi to ground? life seems
miserable. i feel so stupid in front of him,so ignorrant.waiting for him to contact
mi everyday. wondering wat is he doing? most of the time is i sms/msn him de lo. i don tink
he ever care.god damn it.it already 3 yrs y tat stupids
membories jus cant get lost.i wanted to give him up everytime bt wen he sms mi or msn mi i
cant deep down inside i kon i cant forget.y am i made this way sometimes i wonder. i
told myself i sld be conented tat at least now he will sms or msn at least we contact.
bt somehow or rather humans r greedy i jus want more. cant i? i don wan to jus hug his
shadow .. cant i live in his heart again. once he told mi forever i took his words
seriourly n i said the same things to him bt i tink its mi hu is misery holding on to
this word FOREVER. i don kon does he still have feelings for mi thpugh it had been so
long im still confident tat i still love him lyke i used to but somehow or rather its deeper right now.
hw i wish im dead so i wont feel anything anymore.
straw bag