Im lost. which is the right way ?
slept at 3.30 am last night..
woke up at 8 today to
acc my mum to market...
i was feeling so shag today...
I went to fetch the kids at
ard 4 to
doris house warming...
i sent them home at
ard 7.30 pm...
that was when the incident happen...
that was when i exploded
when i sent the kids home..
i saw their mum with her parents..
I knew something was not quite right !
told them to give me a sec while i sent kids to their room first...
called
gu ma and my cousin over..
i was talking to her first b4 they rush over..
the first thing tat come out of her mouth was
nt abt her kids
nt abt how's her husband
It was MONEY ! money money money
what the hack..
ya right i have sold one of the car..
and so ?
stop pressing on me for money issue..
wen the raise their voice scream and shouting at me..
I really do feel scared..
but i really cant show it out i have to be fiercer then them...
she told me she wanted the kids so she ask for 3 k and as well as the 2 maid !
i say
jus take whatever you wan !
but i wont give you a single cent !
she said she don have money to feed the kids..
might as well you give me the
auit ( car ) and i give you the 3 kids....
hey the you need to pay 2.7k a
mth for the
auit you are unable feed the kids ?????
wat kind of a reason is tat....
i really hate screaming and shouting...
im scared when
ppl raise their voices..
at that time i really feel so helpless
its seems that
im wrong...
the way the 3 of them talk made me feels like giving in..
anyway once my
guma and cousin arrived i ran home
le...
i
tink they are now still talking...
maybe
im still a child who cant handle this kind of situation
i feel so useless....
im now feeling damn
pek chek !
feel like screaming !
argh!!!!!!!
its so naive of me to say that i wanted to protect them...
feel like crying but there
isnt any tears..
is it because
im too used to swallow all my tears back ?
i feel so lost...
what should i do?
which is the right way ?
i don like leading...
what if i bring everyone to a wrong one?
im afraid that they might put the blame on me !
argh !!!!!!!
im struggling
straw bag