First of all i have to apologise to Josiah
sorry for venting my anger on you when u called me last night.
I'm kind of fustrated this few days
so little things really do pissed me off.
but i kon you were innocent and got scolding from me once i pick up the call.
cos actually last night i was sms-ing
then suddendly mood change and u called.
im really sorry.
the world seems to be collasping onto me.
i cant seems to breathe.
will anyone be there to bring me out of the darkness.
where is the prince in fairy tale gone to ?
where is ur white horse ?
i hate the girl i am right now.
i really do need someone to lean on.
im not tat brave and cheerful as i seem to be.
i hate ppl calling mi..
stop pressing me for payment.
stop calling me cos of your kids
stop calling me to settle everything for you.
Im not your god.
i hated the things as it is right now !
i hated the world
stop pressing mi
i might go crazy
i hated betrayer.
can i believe that someone would bereally there for me ?
can i believe that someone would be by my side for life ?
the fact is no !
everyone got to depart in the end !
there isnt any guarantee in this whole !
sometimes i really wonder
where had the me gone to ?
i tink i changed alot .
i tink i have grown older.
where is the decent gal i am in the past.
where is the gal who hated vulgarities ?
where is the gal who hated smoking?
where is the happy little gal gone to ?
this environment , this stress is forcing me to turn into the person i am now.
I wish i could get away with every thing now.
can i ?
i hated changes.
when everything turn in a norm
u better stick with it !
like for today i have been waiting for the whole day.
but where have my norm gone to ?
it was like i fear.
i really fear changes..
so today i wasnt acting my usual self.
we had steamboat.
with my cousin n my mum.
then when we were chating or something.
they were talking about something i guess.
it was jus some joke but i don kon why i get pissed off and scolded my cousin.
i wasnt myself.....
i was feeling as in i lack of something.
i was waiting for something.
this is bad .....
really bad
straw bag