had been damn freaking bz lately...
might be due to the company launch
or im trying to immune myself from all that is happening to me.
I felt guilty , bad , evil recently
and cos of all the mixed feeling inside me
feeling god damn down down
nv felt so down b4....
and back in office still have to act back my cheerful self
its awful
been smoking like hell
oh god...
i ruin my cousin career
its scatter....
eventually we close down...
its all my fault
i should be not yi qi yong shi....
i should not blew everything up....
if not course they wanna save mi things would not turn all this way
if not for me they would still be outside
if all not for me...
just this mth.....
i know what is the feeling of being betray by ur best friend
all who know mi well u will heard me telling you about my china dream
i wanna go over there to further pursue my career
go there start anew.
start my 1st career there
i draft up proposal and stuff
and manage to get partnership and whatso ever
everything goes smoothly as plan
but in the end that stupid fellow ruin everything
she went to all my partner to persuade them to invest in her instead
what the hack
i trusted u
and in the end is this how u gonna treat mi ?
and this mth i lose a friend
a friend that is so important
i tot we could stay as friends
but anyway if this is your decision i respect it
if this might cheer you up abit.....
i believe things must be tough for him as his face look even more shag than i am
hope things might turn for the better for him.....
actually tot of resigning cos might be going china
but for now i think i sld stay in this company
i don wanna anymore changes as for now
let me settle all the things bit by bit first
i don wanna change a new environment n learn everything all over agin
it suck !
life really sucks...
especially this month.
oh god take me with you please
i don wanna stay on earth
i lose everything
im lost to this world
please take mi with you....
please....
straw bag