God if you are really there please kindly guide the lost sheep back home.
If you are there please guide the lost soul back to its owner
life has not been easy for me
God if you don't mind i might need your help
Kindly guide me back onto the right path perhaps
your help will be greatly appreciated
Have not been blogging for the last four months
I am keeping myself very very busy
for the first 2 months had been hanging with one of my very best guy friend
almost every single off day
Just want to refrain myself from being alone ( I might have some wild imagination )
He has been my side every time i need him i swear he is always there
on the 3 month he pop a question why can't it be him
he is way better than 'dolly'
yes he might be right but I got pissed for some reason i guess ( i don even know what is the reason )
I told him straight off his not at all attractive to me
from then on i shut myself up from the outer world
but i need to do something
this came into my mind
watching korean variety , drama getting all sorts of information on k pop
and yes
been in front of the computer for more than 3 months
going around korean idols
I even took up a korean lesson to keep myself real busy
but im lost really lost
what should i do?
what should i do ?
hello god
have you forgotten all about me ?
I need your guidence here
last thu i went to bed around 12 +
received a msg from a familar no. which is from a familar stranger
I knew its him
however for the sake of him I told myself I have to act as though i do not know him
since this is the way he wanted it to be
I told myself do the way he wanted
since my withdrawal is for him to feel blessed
although the reason for him to sms I don know
but he seems apologetic
he is always thinking of others before him
he should have been more selfish
I caught a cold on sun i guess
Fever on mon when im at work
feel so awful actually wanna leave work for home half way through
i didnt even attend class that day.
for my usual pratice i wont work when im sick
but i continuing working
I even drag myself to work the next day with my feverish body its really awful
mum ask me to stay home
even my maid do not want to wake up for work on tue
despite that i drag myself to work
wondering why
ah i still got this kind of persistant
i admire myself for dragging myself to work
with that high temperture
im great
I dragged myself to work is because the company management
has just approved the 3days 2 night outing
I read the email on mon
that we will be in the organising committee
If I were to go on MC on tue he would be incharge of doing all the invitations , itnernary etc.
after his promotion i guess he having too much of a stress
do not wish to add on to his burden
I have to go work
and this how i drag myself to work
i was feeling better today mum forced me for medi ytd night and my friend brought me pocari sweat ( my life saver )
one colleague of mine came up to me today
and say there is an extra can of drink on the desk as if i want it ?
you know what ? its pocari sweat.
it totally impossible to buy an extra can of pocari sweat in my working area
i swear IMPOSSIBLE !
he then say someone brought but does not want his name to be mention
I knew who is it
that familar stanger ~
ah he wanted to lighten his feeling of gulity
but anyway thanks
一切都会好转，
因为我相信
straw bag